Dear God please cure the cancer in homophobic Christians souls.

Tough people

Touqh people are not born; they are made when no one is there for them to wipe their tears...

The Christian Faith in a nutshell

I am not a jw or a lds or a seventh adventist, I have to most of all the other christian denominations and found that except the above mention and a couple of others most agree on the basic tenents of their faith.

This is what the majority of Christians believe reworded by me to help you understand what it all means.

G-d did create us with a ability to make a choice. A choice to love Him or stay seperated from Him
G-d created adam and eve and made them ruler over the whole earth (they had the title to us and everything else on earth). But in order for them to keep this title they had to pass a test. A test to determine whether or not man would love and obey G-d.
Adam the first man failed the test. Eve did not bring sin and death because she was tricked by lucifer but adam was not tricked. He knew what the penalty would be if he bit into that apple but he loved his wife and wanted to be with her so he ate it.
The result was a change in all men and women to be unable to completely live a sinless (ie mistake free, charater defects, laps in moral charater whatever you want to call it).

This allowed a very beautiful but prideful and arrogant fallen angel to take possion of us and not God. When adam sinned he signed the title to earth and all in it to lucifer..

G-d loved us and could not bear to lose everyone to His fallen angel, but He himself had to follow His own rules. So He created a plan to save everyone who wanted to be saved by Him.

The plan was that G-d Himself would create a sinless son, one that would be fully human to pay the price for the title to earth and mankind back and fully G-d so that His son could live a sinless life because of His Father.

That Son was Jesus and I am sure that most all of you already know about the story of Him being born of mary, healing people and performing miracles and then laid His life down for us at the cross, went to hell for us (so yes G-d knows just what hell is like)
and then rose again from the dead and acended into Heaven.

Because Jesus paid that dear price and suffered for us anyone who wants to believe in Him, His Father and the Holy spirit which is sent to live in us at the moment of salvation, will not perish but have everlasting life.

Why is there pain and suffering? Because until Jesus comes back and takes possion of the earth and forces lucifer out we will still suffer because as far as lucifer is concerned he still acts as though he still owned it.

Does lucifer the only reason for pain and suffering? No because until we die if we are saved we still live on this old earth in our old bodies and still operate under the law of sin. Which means we still hurt each other, we still die and we still suffer.

So if you really want to know G-d and live a perfect sinless life after death or until Jesus comes back all you have to do is admit to G-d that you have screw up (sinned, failed, have charater defects etc), ask Jesus to live in your heart, be baptised if you weren't at birth, and try to live by the principles (lessons, suggestions etc) in the bible.

You can't earn your way into heaven because none of us are capable of living a sinless life from birth to death. There is not a sliding fee scale that G-d uses to check whether or not you can get in. G-d provided a way out and if we are stubborn and choose to live without Him then when we die we will live without Him forever, stuck in our own crap, paying for all the things we did to others because without being saved you are responsible for paying for your own sins. So yes you still have a choice. If you think that hell won't be that bad and you really hate the idea of a higher power helping you thru life then you can. I would not advise it but it is still your choice.

And that is the message in a nutshell and yes gays, lesbians, bi and transgender persons can be saved contray to the message that we are too vile and immoral to be saved.

Giving thanks when depressed.

As hard as it may seem the best medicine for depression is to praise God and thank Him for all the things He has given us.

During these last couple of weeks I was depressed, angry and hurt and yet I kept running into verses that said Give thanks to the Lord, rejoice in the Lord always, and in everything give thanks. Needless to say at the time I felt irritated at this, how can I possibly give thanks when everything is going wrong and I am losing so much. But the Lord never gave up, I would be directed to job and to the psalms.

Finally I gave in and started giving God thanks for everything, even though in my heart I did not feel it. But then I started finding good things to thank God about in my situation, so I thanked Him more and before you know it I found acceptance of my circumtances and found myself feeling much better and not so miserable and depressed.

So thru It I learned how to overcome deep depression with Gods guidance. It also helps to remember that the feeling will not last forever, even though it feels like it will. So try to rejoice and give thanks even if you are only mouthing it at first. Read Job and the psalms, and allow God to work in your life.

being open

If you have read thru my posts you will have noticed that I try to be open and honest about myself and how I am feeling. I do this because as the title suggests this is my walk with God. I am human and I make many mistakes. The reason why my website is called the least of His children is because I have brought shame to the Lord many times thru my drinking, using drugs, marrying 3 different times, and then finally being a lesbian which I have given up.

Because of my sins and the sins of others in my life I have had a very hard time in life. Here I am at 48 years old and feeling like I wasted so much of my life. Just about any type of suffering a woman can face I have gone thru. I have been beaten, raped, had my children abused by my ex husbands, used drugs, used alcohol, been depressed and atempted suicide, been abused as a child, lost a child (thru a forced abortion by my parents), gone hungry, thirsty, been homeless, had cancer, and now have many disablities as a result of my hard life. I have asked my Heavenly Father and my Lord and Saviour Jesus thru the Holy Spirit to forgive me and to forgive others who have hurt me and misused me and my children. And because I was a lesbian I also know in great detail what men go thru with women also.

There are not many problems that anyone has that I can't related to. But yet do I take pride in my hard life? NO! Because much of it was a result of not listening to the Lord. All of it is garbage, none of it matters. The only thing that really matters and did matter was that thru it all the bad and the few good times my Lord was with me and helped me. Even when I turned away from the narrow path He went looking for me. my God has been there every step of the way, and for that I thank HIM!!

So if you are suffering in anyway or feel guilt have hope! If God helped me then surely He will help you. Sometimes it will be right away, sometimes it will take years, sometime thru a miracle and sometimes thru the ordinary. HE will always give you want you need. Not what you want but what you need.

God answered my prayer and helped me.

I feel much better now about the whole thing. I realise now that I needed to leave the group. I hope that God shows them the way to go. A british member of another christian forum read all the letters I sent and the replies of the group moderator, plus the posts he made and this was his reply which was a Gift from God and I realise now that I was to be a witness to them and they rejected the message.

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hi again,by the way im male not female as my gender sign indicates

ok now to this,ive read your messages and this is what i think

this is all a joke right??.i mean you making a litterate mistake in your phrase in a post,ie bright morning star........they ban you for a mistake by your wording??

those moderators are either draconian scribes of THE CHRISTS time or after your head for another reason

they dont know your a ex lesbian do they??......that youve just quit a relationship for god {which is awesome by the way}....if they do theres your reason,they were just waiting for you to trip up so they could ban you,seen it many times before

my advise is QUIT,there not true christians as theres no forgiveness or love within them,unfortunatly anybody can say they belong to the lord

lastly i apologise for the behaviour of my countrymen,were thankfuly not all like those on that forum.........*HUGS*

gave up

Well I gave up on the cyberchurch. I am feeling quite betrayed right now and it is so hard for me to even get up the ambition to pray for others on other forums. It has left a bitter taste in my mouth and makes me think that maybe I should not even get involved with christian forums. I have been keeping phyically active which is quite painful for me because I have arthritis and fibromyalgia. Why they claim is only like a flue like body ache I don't know cause my pain is sharp and unberable without medication. I feel defeated and quite alone. If it were not for my Heavenly Father I don't know what I would do. with all that is going on sometimes I feel sorrow to the point of death.

At least you all know why I call myself the least of His children