Well here I am coughing my brains out still, but I am feeling stronger. Last week was bad I was so weak and feverish. And grouchy. I hate it when I get irritable with people just because I am sick or because I did not take my medication as I should have. I am learning patience with myself. My dropping things is getting worse and I get so angry with myself when it happens. Especially when it is the last of the juice or milk that I want to drink. But my Heavenly Father is letting it happen for a reason if for no other than to teach me more lessions in patience. It always seems that when I think that I have a paticular sin (some would call it charater defects, others would call it mistakes, err in judgement etc.) licked something happens that brings it roaring back into plain view. Perhaps a fall from pride? I do not know but struggling with sin is a never ending job that has to be done daily just like some people do the 12 steps of aa or alanon daily. All I can do is pray, read my devotions, read my bible, study it and gleen lessons from it and try to practise what I learn.
I really enjoy making things and I am thinking about starting a home based business based on it. It would be so nice to actually make some money instead of collecting disability checks. I am glad that I get it but it does not amount to very much. just enough to survive on and I would so love to be able to give back to society instead of taking from it.
Well that is it for today.
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